By Lucy Caulkett-
A recovering alcoholic says he suffers from panic attacks first thing in the morning when he wakes up.
Gary Hustwitt, 60. was downing up to 10 pints of larger on daily basis for several months after his stockbroker father died and left him out of a substantial amount of his will. His family say he was very unpleasant to his father in his final days, calling him only when he needed money and never visiting him in hospital.
Mr. Hustwitt(pictured) says there are many reasons for that run deep in his blood and a complex and traumatising past. He was rescued from his last property by this publication after court process to evict him was underway. After our useful intervention, his family moved him from his home which was left in a squalor when he left, to a much classier location. His former landlord gave him an awful reference, but again, our intervention meant an exception was made for him.
BEREAVED
Depressed and bereaved, mr Hustwitt was an extreme case of alcoholism, often waiting by the corner shop as they opened at 8 am in the morning to by a minimum of four beers at once. If he ran out of money, he had the charm offensive to obtain his drink on credit.
Now the subject of broader research on alcoholics, Gary, who can be very confident sounding and articulate, has needed close to daily guidance to get this far, which is still a fair way from the goal of complete abstinence from alcohol.
He has gone from 10 pints of Kapache to 3 or 4 bottles of wine a week. This improvement has been for the past few weeks, but Gary, who has been pretty independent in the past 48 hours. spoke truthfully about his feelings:
EMPTY
” I often feel empty without a drink. I feel so worthless about life that if a drink is not there for me to see or have I feel like cutting my wrists, That’s how bad it has felt, but I can now see a drink and go a few days without touching it. But it is painful in that time. Keeping busy reading and being mentally active helps, but that chemical activity in my brain comes when it wants. It comes and goes.
His sister, who is the executive to their father’s will, once in a desperate attempt to save her brother, contacted every shop in Hockley with his picture, urging them not to serve him alcohol. In order to get round that, determined Gary would get a bus out of the area to purchase alcohol or order it online.
Today, she wants nothing to do with him over the way he is said to have insulted his father and mother, and enjoys a much larger share of their father’s inheritance. She declined to be interviewed about her brother and her identity has been respectfully withheld.
She is said to have been the loving and supportive daughter of their father. She was also at the receiving end of insults from Gary, whose volatile mood falls under limited category of psychological or biological causes.
INHERITED
Mr. Hustwitt claims to have inherited a condition that makes him agitated and prone to drink. ”I was born this way. It’s a chemical in the brain that make people like me to find it difficult to completely detach myself from alcohol, There have also been so many unfortunate things in my life that makes me this depressed. Those things are also aggravated by a hereditary factor.
CRYING
The former engineer was a crying mess for many months as he lay in bed drunk stupid and wetting his trousers in bed and on occasions pooing the bed due to excessive alcoholic intake and lack of food. The extent of his depression was so bad that this organisation collaborated with members of his family to transfer his accommodation and separate him from the drug addicts worsening his already destructive life.
CARING AND MONITORING
Under special caring and monitoring of about four months, mr Hustwitt has managed to completely give up the 9 percent strength of strong polish kapache beer- a which once turned him into a sad figure bedfast through depression.
But the former engineer has swapped the beer for a bottle of wine which he now has three times a week. In the last seven days, he has had a bottle of wine four times. His swap of cigarettes with e cigarettes is progress and a step in the right direction, but he needs to give up the wine to prevent a deterioration of his health.
Gary told The Eye Of Media.Com: ” I panic some mornings and a drink is not there. I feel very anxious, like my body needs a drink. It seems like I am being told I can just give it up, but the lack of it can be very dangerous. I have come a long way, I am no longer dependent on alcohol like I used to be.
SELF HATE
Fighting back,Mr Hustwitt said : ” I hate myself, I just feel I am not worth anything. I feel I am constantly fighting suicidal thoughts. I wake up in the morning and I have to go past these horrible feelings”. The depressed alcoholic is renting a property in an affluent part of Chalkwell in Essex where the annual price of his rent has been fully paid ,
His father’s will does not permit him to have large sums of cash at any one time, and he is currently on an allowance of £100 a week because of his drinking habit.
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